Nancy
Incredible - is it not ? - how things can “touch” one and not others ? And how a “specific” touch can make One react and – YES – change everything, even if … for a brief instant ? In One’s “chemistry” you say (and I may agree) ? And the Actions that then … may occur, because of that change ?
Hell, whatever that is and means… and how it works or happens.
Fact is, it happens. Just like Shite does.
I prefer my “overtones” in different tracheas.
I’m a linear guy.
But once in – a very – while … when I touch, or hear, see, smell, read or feel … “a (whatever) thing” … it “touches” me …. I suppose that happens with everybody, for it is …well, “normal” , so I’m in no way saying this with a claim towards anything out of the ordinary ( just for the record !) I’m as plain a Joe as you can get, as stupid or dumb as the next and such a newbie in these … wanderings ( ? ) as to be pitifully ridiculous.
(I hate writing with Reticences …. but what I’m writing about is not easy)
To clarify,
That kind of shite happens, once in a while … go figure how come or why …. and I bet it happens with Everybody. I’m just Jerk enough or with Cojones enough (you pick, I don’t mind either way) to say it without being afraid of looking like an imbecile, which I am anyway, no big deal from that angle of things.
So, to continue with this crazyness
When that shite happens …. the hairs on my neck raise.
And
Sometimes, as with Anna-Maria’s Polyphonic Singing , my “danger mode” kicks in (bit stupid, this kind of description, but that’s exactly how I can describe it).
But
Some other times …. it is… well, even worse !
For it is not a danger mode that grabs me (I can deal with that) …. but something Else that renders me helpless . You (anybody !) surely know what I mean and am trying to convey … helpless, as in, unable to resist, as in …. I give in.
Thing is,
When that kind of shite happens, what I feel is not Danger ….. but … what I can best describe as … a kind of brutal strenght, Irresistible . For lack of modesty in my feelings, I call it The Pull Of Life !
And it is … overwhelming !
Yes, overwhelming.
As in, a mental Tsunami.
I could cite but very few of those instances.
Even less when “all” I could put forward were “sounds” … or “music”.
So I’ll mention this, as perhaps a more easily “understandable” example, among some other things from Mozart, Wagner, Brahms and Rimsky-Korsakov that “touch” me (I’m not undercapping anyone by not pulling those up, it is just that those are even more difficult for me to convey because it is mostly Sound, and not Voices !) :
- When I hear the 5th and 6th “Movements” of Vangelis’s “Mythodea” … … … I am overwhelmed, tsunamied …. because …. I feel … something akin to Life calling me up !
And I will - inside my head – fall on my knees. And with very real eyes … freely cry ... some long, slow, fat tears.
While feeling Helpless. And Naked.
In the face of what, to me, I see as LIFE.
That is why I avoid hearing it.
It overwhelms me. I loose “it”, as it were.
I can’t move.
To be truthful, it was- many years ago, and blindly - a birthday present from the Wife. Which - shite being shite - turned out to be … more than I could handle, so to speak.
After the first time I heard it …. it took me more than 6 years – yes, Six Years ! - to muster enough Strenght to hear it again.
I simply did not have enough Courage to do it, and Get Up and Move afterwards. Beautiful as the Music is.
It is that … Powerful.
To Me …that is.
I deal with it … to this day… very carefully.
If Strong enough to Face … both Movements … well, click here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOVatBvGxF4 …. and place cursor up to around minute 35:50.
You will be staring at “It”. Or rather… hearing.
And then, maybe You’ll understand what I’m talking about.
Or not.
In fact, no matter
For because of whatever reasons, I’m sharing a part of my Soul with this “disclosure”.
So be it. Maybe there’s an explanation.
PS : I have not yet allowed myself to check your “vocalist” link.
Am giving it time.
You see, too much “energy” here, suddenly … and I will take only what I can deal with.
Yes, I’m a coward.
Maybe that’s why I’m here…